[biting the inside of his cheek, the words don't pass the sudden lump in his throat. he'd felt hot with incredulity not a moment before, but that moment hadn't included Anders' explanation, and as the magician spoke - anger ebbed, abated, replaced piece by piece with dread. asking Pilot to die for something he blindly believed in didn't strike him as any better than asking a person to die for their trusted ally; asking a person to die at all, then, wasn't that the problem?]
[yes, it was.]
[indiscernible, lacking in merit, Pilot carried a belief not at all enviable. Anders-- he'd approached the man with an obvious bias that couldn't disappear with a single explanation, no matter how idealistic it was. however, it could be smothered under heavier thoughts, and so.]
He... [eventually, one hand tugging at his shirt's hem.] ... Couldn't've said no. And that's on you.
[this is fact.]
But that doesn't make you any more guilty than the rest, as the only point seemed to be to find people who wouldn't decline. So your only real fault's in following orders, and I-- [don't know. mouth twisting down, shoulders hunching defensively, every line derisive,] - I think we all destroyed a planet under orders, so how can I really blame you?
no subject
[biting the inside of his cheek, the words don't pass the sudden lump in his throat. he'd felt hot with incredulity not a moment before, but that moment hadn't included Anders' explanation, and as the magician spoke - anger ebbed, abated, replaced piece by piece with dread. asking Pilot to die for something he blindly believed in didn't strike him as any better than asking a person to die for their trusted ally; asking a person to die at all, then, wasn't that the problem?]
[yes, it was.]
[indiscernible, lacking in merit, Pilot carried a belief not at all enviable. Anders-- he'd approached the man with an obvious bias that couldn't disappear with a single explanation, no matter how idealistic it was. however, it could be smothered under heavier thoughts, and so.]
He... [eventually, one hand tugging at his shirt's hem.] ... Couldn't've said no. And that's on you.
[this is fact.]
But that doesn't make you any more guilty than the rest, as the only point seemed to be to find people who wouldn't decline. So your only real fault's in following orders, and I-- [don't know. mouth twisting down, shoulders hunching defensively, every line derisive,] - I think we all destroyed a planet under orders, so how can I really blame you?
[that is, somehow, an accusation.]